Dreams

 I awake from a terrible nightmare that one of my oldest and bestest friends in the world tells me she doesn't want to be friends with me anymore. This sounds so silly but it was one of the scariest dreams I'd had for awhile. I remember distinctly in it that she looked me right in the eye and said we had never really been friends, we had nothing in common, we were just pretending. And that she thought I was really weird. And then Corey was with her and said she wasn't going to be my friend anymore either cause Nicole wasn't. And then it was strange because within in the dream I wondered if it was a dream because it seemed too bad to be real. Weird. Anyways it was a really sad way to wake up this morning, but at least I feel pretty rested for  8:00 in the morning.

I've been feeling super accomplished lately, especially since I just got my job at Uncommon Grounds, this cafe/restaurant kinda place on campus. I was lucky to get hired esp. cause I'd never had any dining hall experience. They just needed employees really badly and I happened to respond to the ad early enough. So I only work a few hours a week but, it's nice because it feels out my schedule and keeps me busy and extra money never hurt. It'll also be nice when I apply for other barista/food jobs cause then I'll have the experience. 

Anyways, I've been feeling really accomplished and too busy to really notice how lonely I am. Every morning I wake up at 8, take a shower, EAT BREAKFAST (which I never do), go to classes, get lunch, go to work, do homework, eat dinner, do more homework, spend some time with friends, talk to Jesse and then go to bed around 11 or 12. SO get this, I'm eating all of the meals, going to bed early, waking up early, AND getting all my shit done. I haven't even been drinking during the week. I swear it's like I'm a different person. BUT I'm still smoking healthily and not exercising. I was thinking about adding those onboard but that would just be too healthy and freak me out. I just hope all these positive changes don't make me have some nervous breakdown in the near future. But I guess we'll see.