Sunday, October 19, 2008

"All my life, there you go, oh please stay, just this once, anyway"



I don't remember how it started. I only remember the part where I get out of the school bus and watch it back up. I remember thinking that it was going awfully close to the hill, and then it was going to slide down if the driver wasn't careful. The bus slips. It hits the ditch and seemingly bounces back out on to road slamming into the man directing them in the front, and one other man on the other side of the road, just missing the man beside them. I run down into the road to see if the men are ok. The driver leaves. I scream at the last man standing to call the police but he is really creepy and starts getting really close to my face and telling me we have to work on my work ethic. I get scared and somehow manage to make it to a house that in my mind is Jesse's. I stumble in and there are people in the living room, I don't remember their faces. Jesse is in the bathroom getting out of the shower. I hug him and say it's been a rough day. Then for some reason Mo that hangs out at Roma and is friends with Cordell comes into the living room and points a gun at everyone in the living room. She screams, "It's been a rough day, ok!?" And I moan from the bathroom "Oh, god." She storms into the bathroom and screams "That's exactly what I've been hearing all day, and now I'm sick of it." And proceeds to shoot and miss 5 times. Jesse and I crouch into the corner and I am hiding behind his naked body in the bathroom. She shoots again and makes it this time in my neck and I crouch down with a towel over my face like I'm dead, but I'm just pretending so she won't shoot again. I do that a lot in dreams, as if I got shot I could just stay quiet and pretend I'm dead. I wake up a couple seconds after, pleased in relief that of course it's just a dream. With a giddy smile on my face I shift over to put my arms around my half naked lover only to remember he had left the day before.